Since i am back to a happy-go-lucky boy,
who heck care everyone's thoughts and feelings for me.
I shall go back to someone who is to be direct in your face.
SO DON'T PISSED ME OFF~! _|_(^- ^) _|_
I know i have good tolerance, but there is always a limit in everything.

I seriously learnt that friends i made belong into so fucking many categories.
*I took i could improve all of them to a good stage. BUT i was wrong..*
I seriously made a mistakes in letting too many friends know about me and things i do.

Friends~
Come by many levels.
There are those 'Hi-Bye' Friends, 'Talkable' Friends, 'Working' Friends, Good Friends, Close Friends, Buddies, Partners and Soul mates. These are, to me, leveled to the trust that i can give.

'Hi-Bye' Friends
At this level, 'Hi-Bye' Friends are just friends you know, where you see them on the streets. These people, you wont even bother to help in details because they do not know you well so does you. You will just gradually walk past them, overlooking at the trouble that they fell into.

-These are friends that you cant really trust them with your personal things at all, where you just know them only a short period of time. You will never know what happened after that. Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

'Talkable' Friends
The word 'Talkable' already given you the answer. This means that these people, are just friends that you can talk hell lot of shyt in a conversation. And they don't give a FUCKING DAMN about your life. You will just talk somethings and compare. After that you go your way, he go his.

-Ideal for people who just want to have people to accompany when they feel shyt. They are also the one that you cant trust them much. But at least you are on friendly terms, which you wont want to step into the danger zone. Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

'Working' Friends
At this level, these friends of yours, you will be facing them almost everyday. Gradually both of you will know the surface of each other character through working. This is where many friends you made would be filtered, so it's either you moved up to the next level as a 'Good Friends' or you remain here.

-There is limited trust you could give. Secrets you have is best that you don't leak it out. Especially when its come to personal life such as family and relationship. Even if they know, that also know the rough details, which things aren't 100% true. Otherwise, you will find yourself being blacklisted and shot from the back. So Beware~! Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

Good Friends
From this point, things have just started to improve in term of friendship, this is where you started to have interests in knowing each other more about their life and things happening around them. Details and contacts may have been exchanged for future communication purposes. Then when either of you need help, you will ONLY help IF you are not busy with something at that moment. If not, you would have reject his/her request, knowing that things will happened to them. After all, these friends have their life and their friends too.
Good example, regular friends that you know at a place or CCAs.

-These friends of yours, you could only trust them with your minor problems. And its not recommended to approach for help too many times. If not they will avoid you in future, which you will hurt to know that later on. And one thing for sure, you wouldn't know that if that is their true colour of themselves when they are helping you. Therefore, you are not able to know what will happen next if they are offended. Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

Close Friends
At the line between 'Good Friends' and 'Close Friends', many people tend not to notice them and yet see it as one. Whye? Because from being a 'Good Friend' to a 'Close Friend', time spent to bond closer have no limits. Some might take a couple of days, while others might take few months. So it's up to how much time you're willingly to spare for each other. These are the people who you know that they will help when they heard about your problems, even if you did not approuch them. They are always ready to be your listening ears, when you need them. Even if they cant be a great help, they will still be there and then to ask and show concern for you.

Here are two points that differ between 'Good Friends' and 'Close Friends', 1) When a 'Close Friend' happened to foresee problems that will befall on you, they would at least hint or notify you about, making sure that you are aware of it and prepare to prevent it from happening. 2)A 'Close Friends', will always try to get you involved in outings and plans. Making sure that you not forgetten and neglected aside. Because they want share the fun and enjoyments as a group.

-Noted: Although they may have reached to this level, but still you wouldn't know that it is their true colour of themselves that they have revealed. Thus, i guess its still alright if they know parts and parcel of your life, cause a 'Close Friend' might turn their back on you one unfortunate day. And you will see lots of problems surfacing up to you. Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

Buddies
At this stage, aka 'Trusted Friends' aka 'Best Friend Forever', this group of people are those who you have spent nearly a year or more knowing each other. They have come to a point where you are known to their family by name. They are also people that you can depend on them without worries. Be it any kind of problems, or the depth of it, and you will know that they are always behind you, looking out for your back. Supporting and respecting your decision.

As from this stage, they are no longer just friends, because they are someone that know every close details of you, and might expect that they will knock sense into you, when you walk onto a wrong path. Because your 'Buddy' do it is for your good, wanting you to enjoy and not suffer. To a certain time, you would approuch them and decide things together before you finalise any decision, or even talk about everthing that is personal to you and YOU ONLY.

-Being a 'Buddy', isnt that easy as you speak the word out from your mouth. Because a 'Buddy' is someone who is willing to step into your life and suffer with you through hardships even though they are not even involved from the start. So from your ring of friends, it is obvious that there are only a handful of them where they earned the title and can be depend on as a 'Buddy' So don't get mixed up as being a 'Buddy' to a 'Partner'. Because as far as a 'Buddy' can go, they also have their life to move on a later stage. So watch your mouth before you talk about others, it is easy to cause a misunderstanding from it. Do You fall in this category in our friendship?-

(PS. Be it 'Buddies' or 'Partners', both also have to be able to tolerate one another's short-comings. Because in life, tests will always appear randomly at you. So it's just that are the both of you up to the standard of the test. Can you handle it?)

Partners
'Partners' only consist of two persons, normally it is of oppsite genders. Unless you are the special cases. 'Partners' are only form from 'Friend' to the 'Special One'. TO GET THIS CLEAR! 'PARTNERS' gets more intimate with each other than a 'BUDDY'. (I caps these two words, just in case you got a freaking cock-eye person or you are just damn blur.) Other than that, the time spent and things done is almost the same as a 'Buddy' does. Because he/she is someone who know you can be truly depended on. Expect that you know that you could share Mutual Understanding, Trust and Forgiveness between each other, before Love could happen. In short i call this 'Bonding'.

-Im keeping this section short, because I have just lose one recently. Don't ask me whye, because I don't like to repeating history of my life. Futhermore, I quite pissed off over somethings that I found out. Since I made my decision too, I shall moved on as myself.-

Soul mates
This stage is at the highest point in life. It is also classified as 'Life long buddies' or 'Engagment Life'. Because this is when 'Life long buddies' or 'Partners', decide or have settled down with their family or as a family. This is also known that 'Life long Buddies' and 'Partners' would enjoy the sweetest moment from countless of tests that have been dumped on them for a very long period of time.

-Thus I wouldnt comment about it as I have not experience it at this stage.-

To conclude this, everyone owns a whitebook and a blackbook.
The whitebook is where a good impressions of you is written in.
But one single mistake done, the blackbook is where your NAME is being engraved in forever.
Big and Clear enough that you will always be watched and never be forgotten.
Unless you are no longer living in this rotten Society.
So once if you are in my blackbook, u will better off to be dead.

Lastly, there is a saying:
"A dog that doesnt bark loudly, does not means that it's bite won't hurt."
Then i shall add on,
"A cat may seem as a gentle creature, but beware of it's paws."
'Men are like dogs, while Women are like cats.'

And 'That's what friends are for' comes behind 2 meanings.
Want to know? Go figure it out yourself~!

Signing off~
Benjamin is Pissed~

Its Her That I Just Cant Stop Thinking Of;
10:06 PM