Hmmm, how should i start this explanation.
I know you are pretty upset now..
You may not want to read my post now.
I wont make a fuss for that.
Partly not spending time with you,
going out with friends all the time..
I admit im wrong.
Neglecting your feeling earlier..
But i seriously dont meant to hurt or anger you on purpose.
I know im slow..
Caused this is still my 2nd serious r/s,
as to be with you.

During Sept that month,
hope you know that i always working on the Judo camp.
You are in school having lessons,
at times you were busy with project.
Not that i doesnt want to msg all the times.
Its just i felt that im a bother to you and your project,
if i were to keep txting you the whole day.
So i decided not to disturb u too much
when you in school.
It maybe just a stupid excuses to you.
But i really thought of that way,
maybe just that im suck at expressing love.
So i might do something wrong in my decision.

Since i heard part and parcel from Leng,
i should move the point,
its not that im always with lynn at the times,
its just that since yr1,
lynn had been helping me,
in both judo and academically.
Maybe the juniors dont know about it.
But im treated like a younger brother to her.
putting aside that she is a senior from my course and judo too.
Let alone the title of 'BFF'.
If you are concern, i stopped everything.
Everything that would affect our r/s.
Maybe that most things we planned all the outing together.
But everything i always want to get you involved in first.
Nothing come in my mind except you first.
And i meant it.
Cause i not only want to have fun alone.
I want to bring the fun and enjoyment to everyone.

Maybe that my habit of going out as a group,
i keep organising activities out.
That is my bad and i admit that.
But i had plans,
when school reopens,
i going to 100% make up for the period and time,
that i couldnt be with you.
Just you only.
I mark my words wholeheartedly.

Now i just want to patch things up,
and avoid this stuff again.
I know im insensitive to begin with,
give me some time.
Im trying hard to change for you.
Im truly sorry.
But when that night,
you said i was boring.
It hurt me alot,
cause its something i dunwan to bring to you.

Please dont get upset anymore and forgive me,ok?
This post here, isnt a make up or something.
I really did serious reflection and post it up now.
Contact me soon..

Its Her That I Just Cant Stop Thinking Of;
4:50 AM